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I got a lengthy email from Annette and a lengthy message on facebook from Trisha. Common string... I make both of them feel like they must be bad friends. I'm tired... really tired... where is peace and joy?

Trisha's Text

Well, it looks like I didn't have to text her. She texted me to see if I was going to class tonight. I told her that Jared, John, Dave and I are going disc golfing so I wouldn't be there. She replied saying that she assumed I wouldn't be there, and told me to have fun. I said thanks. hmmm...

No class...

Well, I've decided.... I'm not even going to go to class tonight. Instead, I'm gonna go disc golf with my friends. Whether I should text Trisha to let her know or not, I don't know. I think it would be more polite to do so, but at the same time, I'm not trying to be polite. It's honestly been kind of nice to be in charge of my feelings. I don't know when she'll make another attempt to be my friend. I'm sure she won't last long... I mean, look to the right. I'm a stud! :)

Crystal, a good friend of mine has been wanting to hang out with me lately. That's a nice feeling. She's a pretty neat girl. Sometimes we run together. We've talked a lot about our lives, and have a good trust between us. She's fun!

A couple of Trisha's roommates said they're planning on coming to my basketball game tonight... Jet and Kira... we'll see if they do.

I emailed Laurie last night in response to her email. No reply yet... yet... Again, refer to the picture at right! :)

Email from Laurie? Whoa...

Yup, it's true! I got an email from Laurie... well, I did with about 50 other people, but hey... I know she's alive, and in contact with the world. Crazy! Why do I even care! lol! Well, she basically just told everyone on her list how wonderful Chile was and that she's back to real life now. Said she's looking for a job and plans to move back down to Provo in the fall to finish her masters. Simple. I texted Annette. She said she'd call me when she has a minute. I'm at peace. Trisha matters to me, but I can't let her be everything... especially since she doesn't want to be everything to me. Keep movin'!

Later that day...

Well, I guess it's already taking affect. Trisha texted me while John and I were at the baseball game letting me know that the books that we share were available for pickup from her house. I later texted her back and told her that I just wouldn't use the books this week. During FHE, she texted me asking me if this meant that I wasn't going to devotional tomorrow. I didn't respond. "Are you ignoring me?" Well, yeah... I am... Do I tell her that "Yup, that's right, I'm not going to devo tomorrow? -*sigh*-

Annette texted me and asked how I was. I didn't respond to her either. Maybe I'm taking this "being a jerk" thing overboard. I just need some time to myself.

Number 1

Okay, you asked for it and here it is. A deeper look into Dan's life... personal... and, well, not complete. :) Can't let this get into the wrong hands, you know. This week is gonna be an interesting one. I don't know what all that entails, but I know that I'm gonna make changes to the way I'm approaching things... specifically with Trisha. Things were so good on Saturday and Sunday that it really confused me. It's time for me to take a stand. I can be strong and I can make it.

Just this last week, Annette told me that she couldn't do this anymore. Today, I got a message on facebook telling me how hard a time she's having with not talking to me. I understand, but I still haven't replied. I can't say that I would know what to reply to be honest.

Yup, it's true... Laurie's back. Well, back meaning back in Idaho. Haven't heard from her, nor do I expect to for a while, but I kind of hope to. I don't know what lies ahead there. People change a LOT in two years... heck, I've changed a lot in two years. Anyone who knows me know that's true.

BYU Baseball this afternoon. Going to hang out with John. It'll be fun.